It's raining outside, and I feel like raining too. I'm so homesick that I didn't even want to got up from the bed this morning, knowing that my dad would come home alone without me this night it's really depressing. This time would be my priority time to get some warmth and homy environment, yet for another week, I get stuck in this prison that I even decorated with so many stuff I brought from my home, filled with all the technology that I need, for the used of only myself without ever having to share it or yield it for anyone.
People probably will think that I need friends to accompany me when the afternoon darken to night, but I always wants to be alone in that time. I 'don't want to be disturbed, except that the disturbing sound come from the voice of my sister that needs me to listen to her stories about school and her friends or the voice of my brother tell me to listen a new song that he get, and finally made it to do it with his guitar. It usually got me insane...but now, I just miss it. I just feel so angry, got stuck in a very wrong time. It's screwing my mind, man !
I, once again feel dissapointed for the things that's not even that worse. Why do I keep messing up myself with shitty stuff ?! When did I became this horrible person, so ambitious without a good effort ?! I want to be serene, let it go all the things that buggin'me knowing that someday or even the next day, I will fix things up for myself, and that God will never push me to the cliff without offer me a hand in the end of the edge...I want to ! But, strangely, it feel so difficult to accept, to believe...that's everything is gonna be OK bcuz I'm trying my best, and when people do his best, their somehow get the best achievement their could get. Geezzz....I feel like an idiot !
Yeah well, life will get harder along with the each numbers' changing in your age. I just gotta go compromize and calm down my mind...gotta try to accept and let it go...and believe that God will take care the rest...
Friday, May 9, 2008
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Here comes April...
Waaaaddddaaaaaawwwww !!!
I need a long holiday...I need a break without any work to do...But it's still a long road to walk, the break it's on July. THIS APRIL THERE'S NO GODDAMN HOLIDAY! OMG !!!
I'm so tired being busy like crazy. It's really hard to breathe these days. Eventhough there's no work to do, my mind just keep on working like crazy, thinking about future plans for my work.
It's not just that, i'm frustrated about my scores in this second semester. It got reallly bad for my own standard.Why is it really hard to get a good scores ? Goddamnit ! Maybe i'm trying to hard to get a good scores, maybe if i'm just relax a lil bit, everything's gonna go smoothly like always. Maybe...But why am i acting like crazy people who got obsessed with good scores ? I can't help it to expect a high scores, but everytime my expectation failed me. The bad scores keep coming, and i have to re-do my work from the beginning. Come on, it's only second semester ?! What about the higher semester ?!
FFFRRREEEAAAKKKK !!!!
I am so tired...I need a holiday...immediately. I don't need another holidie, where we got a holiday but we still got that work from hell to do.
Everyone keep talking about how we have more spare time this semester. But why do i still feel so tired, so busy, and so exhausted from all the works that i've done. WHY ?! Am i really being obsessed ? It's dangerous for me to failed in the things that i like, bcuz i can't face it just yet. I'm still not trained to take a failure in a good way. Failure still always got me down and make me feel low and even underestimate myself.
You know, what really makes me concern is that my scores is not that bad, but my reaction is kinda extreme. Well, i think i have a lot to do with my mind. Everything just seems so messed up.
Freak, man...
I need a long holiday...I need a break without any work to do...But it's still a long road to walk, the break it's on July. THIS APRIL THERE'S NO GODDAMN HOLIDAY! OMG !!!
I'm so tired being busy like crazy. It's really hard to breathe these days. Eventhough there's no work to do, my mind just keep on working like crazy, thinking about future plans for my work.
It's not just that, i'm frustrated about my scores in this second semester. It got reallly bad for my own standard.Why is it really hard to get a good scores ? Goddamnit ! Maybe i'm trying to hard to get a good scores, maybe if i'm just relax a lil bit, everything's gonna go smoothly like always. Maybe...But why am i acting like crazy people who got obsessed with good scores ? I can't help it to expect a high scores, but everytime my expectation failed me. The bad scores keep coming, and i have to re-do my work from the beginning. Come on, it's only second semester ?! What about the higher semester ?!
FFFRRREEEAAAKKKK !!!!
I am so tired...I need a holiday...immediately. I don't need another holidie, where we got a holiday but we still got that work from hell to do.
Everyone keep talking about how we have more spare time this semester. But why do i still feel so tired, so busy, and so exhausted from all the works that i've done. WHY ?! Am i really being obsessed ? It's dangerous for me to failed in the things that i like, bcuz i can't face it just yet. I'm still not trained to take a failure in a good way. Failure still always got me down and make me feel low and even underestimate myself.
You know, what really makes me concern is that my scores is not that bad, but my reaction is kinda extreme. Well, i think i have a lot to do with my mind. Everything just seems so messed up.
Freak, man...
Service ala Mak...
Blm lama ini, begt kul gw agak nyantei, gw n bbrp temen gw langsung ngacir ke PIM. Knapa hrs PIM ? Pdhl kampus gw kan lumayan jauh dr PIM...Because, bbrp hr sblm itu, kita smua ngidam makanan yg berlumuran coklat, soalnya klo berlumuran lumpur lapindo kan ga enak ya. Jd aja kita langsung menetapkan mangsa pangan kita adalah cafe Death by Chocolate.
Dgn girang dan riang gembira bagai penggembala domba yg melompat-lompat di bukit nan hijau jauh di Pegunungan Alpen (ini mo crita ttg anak kuliahan apa bule Alpen neh ?), kita jln cepet cari tuh cafe (pk acara nyasar karna lupa jln, nampaknya karna tlalu histeris...-_-'). Akhirnya ktemu dan duduklah kita dgn manis...
Critanya mau pesen neh...Kita berempat minta menu n dikasi cm 2, sedangkan kita tuh ber4. Pdhl, tuh cafe kosong bgt...Tanggepan ptama gw, pelit bgt seh neh...Ya udh, lanjut milih makanan. Abis milih makanan yg bikin sakit kpala dan sakit hati (milih lama bgt, abis nampak enak smua..jd aja sakit pala. Mana harganya lumayan bikin sakit hati lg..hahaha), kita manggil waiternya yg cm ada 1 itu. Trs kita mesen d...Lalu nunggulah kita titisan makanan dr surga yg udh diimpiin slm seminggu di dlm kls saat tangan slalu bekerja, begt jg dgn mulut yg tak hentinya nyerocos, dan ditengah badai AC yg begt dingin menerpa.
Ehhh....udh nunggu lumayan lama, ternyata 2 menu yg dipesen temen gw ternyata abis. But, gw cukup kaget dgn proses pemberitahuan yg dilakukan sang waiter :
REKA ULANG ADEGAN
(Mahasiswi Binus lg ktawa x2). (Waiter datang dgn gerakan secepat kilat dan nyosor dgn menu di tangan). Ktnya, "Menu ini dan menu itu abis". Udh. Titik. Hey bung ! Kita ini customer yg perlu dihormati. Udh lama nunggu, n ternyata menunya habis. Kita berhak dpt ucapan minta maaf tau !!! Mana waiternya gayanya kayak org legeg gt lg...Pokoknya ga banget d cara dia ngelayanin kita. Ini aja udh cukup menjengkelkan. Ehhh...disusul lg sama 1 hal yg mungkin ga smua org merhatiin, tp gw merhatiin dgn cukup jls n bikin gw pengen nendang bokong tuh waiter sekeras x2 nya. Pas dia lg nyajiin makanan, gw liat dia naroh tissue, trus garpu sama pisau yg hrsnya ditaroh rapi diatas tuh tissue, dia lempar sembarangan aja sampe posisinya agak ga karuan. Emangnya lu kate tu kacang apa mas ?! Gila ga kurang gila tuh kurang ajarnya !!! Gw ga percaya ada waiter yg super sembarangan gt.
Gw ngerasa rugi udh bayar 5% bwat jatah service klo gini caranya. Amit x2...Di mall yg lumayan elite bs ada service yg kayak dodol gt gw ga abis pikir d. Cafenya jg lumayan elite. Malu x2 in aja...
Yah, klo ada pengelola cafe yg bc blog gw (halah...mupeng gw), cb d diperhatiin lg tuh pegawe nya. Jgn sampe nemu pegawe yg amit x2 kayak gini d...
Tobat mas waiter...tobat...kiamat sdh dekat...
Dgn girang dan riang gembira bagai penggembala domba yg melompat-lompat di bukit nan hijau jauh di Pegunungan Alpen (ini mo crita ttg anak kuliahan apa bule Alpen neh ?), kita jln cepet cari tuh cafe (pk acara nyasar karna lupa jln, nampaknya karna tlalu histeris...-_-'). Akhirnya ktemu dan duduklah kita dgn manis...
Critanya mau pesen neh...Kita berempat minta menu n dikasi cm 2, sedangkan kita tuh ber4. Pdhl, tuh cafe kosong bgt...Tanggepan ptama gw, pelit bgt seh neh...Ya udh, lanjut milih makanan. Abis milih makanan yg bikin sakit kpala dan sakit hati (milih lama bgt, abis nampak enak smua..jd aja sakit pala. Mana harganya lumayan bikin sakit hati lg..hahaha), kita manggil waiternya yg cm ada 1 itu. Trs kita mesen d...Lalu nunggulah kita titisan makanan dr surga yg udh diimpiin slm seminggu di dlm kls saat tangan slalu bekerja, begt jg dgn mulut yg tak hentinya nyerocos, dan ditengah badai AC yg begt dingin menerpa.
Ehhh....udh nunggu lumayan lama, ternyata 2 menu yg dipesen temen gw ternyata abis. But, gw cukup kaget dgn proses pemberitahuan yg dilakukan sang waiter :
REKA ULANG ADEGAN
(Mahasiswi Binus lg ktawa x2). (Waiter datang dgn gerakan secepat kilat dan nyosor dgn menu di tangan). Ktnya, "Menu ini dan menu itu abis". Udh. Titik. Hey bung ! Kita ini customer yg perlu dihormati. Udh lama nunggu, n ternyata menunya habis. Kita berhak dpt ucapan minta maaf tau !!! Mana waiternya gayanya kayak org legeg gt lg...Pokoknya ga banget d cara dia ngelayanin kita. Ini aja udh cukup menjengkelkan. Ehhh...disusul lg sama 1 hal yg mungkin ga smua org merhatiin, tp gw merhatiin dgn cukup jls n bikin gw pengen nendang bokong tuh waiter sekeras x2 nya. Pas dia lg nyajiin makanan, gw liat dia naroh tissue, trus garpu sama pisau yg hrsnya ditaroh rapi diatas tuh tissue, dia lempar sembarangan aja sampe posisinya agak ga karuan. Emangnya lu kate tu kacang apa mas ?! Gila ga kurang gila tuh kurang ajarnya !!! Gw ga percaya ada waiter yg super sembarangan gt.
Gw ngerasa rugi udh bayar 5% bwat jatah service klo gini caranya. Amit x2...Di mall yg lumayan elite bs ada service yg kayak dodol gt gw ga abis pikir d. Cafenya jg lumayan elite. Malu x2 in aja...
Yah, klo ada pengelola cafe yg bc blog gw (halah...mupeng gw), cb d diperhatiin lg tuh pegawe nya. Jgn sampe nemu pegawe yg amit x2 kayak gini d...
Tobat mas waiter...tobat...kiamat sdh dekat...
Antara Timbaland, Will.I.Am, TI, dan T-Pain
Guyyyssss....
Sadar ga seh ? Klo lagu x2 RnB/Hip-Hop ataupun pop baru yg skarang byk kluar byk bgt yg featuring ke 4 rapper n music producer diatas. Pasangannya slalu artis yg baru kluar ato artis yg lg top. Haha...
Emang seh mereka berempat tuh keren bgt n gw adalah salah satu konsumen berat dr lagu x2 yg berhasil mereka bikin. Mereka tuh klo buat lagu beat nya asik bgt ! Tp klo ditanya sapa yg paling HOT diantara mereka smua...hhmm...I think it's Timbo...Cuz dr smua lagu x2 mereka itu, biasanya yg langsung catchy di kuping n langsung top ya buatannya si Timbo. Sebenernya T-Pain jg punya kecenderungan yg sama, tp jumlah lagu yg dia hasilkan ga sebyk Timbo d kayaknya. Trus tampang si T-Pain jg jarang nongol. Klo si Timbo kan bertebaran dmana x2.
Malah, ada gossip terakhir yg gw denger, our lovely bitch girls, Lindsay n Paris perang dingin gara x2 ngerebutin Timbo. Mereka tuh 2-2 nya mau bikin album baru nampaknya, lalu mau gaet si Timbo (ya eyalah...gw jg mau tuh). Tp katanya seh yg berhasil maju 1 langkah lbh dulu tuh si Paris. Klo gw jd Timbo, gw seh bakal lbh milih Lindsay deh. Suaranya lbh bagus, potensi utk bener x2 'musical' tuh ada. Klo Paris, emang dia ratu skandal, fans setianya super byk dan klo soal menghasilkan duit no.1 deh ! Lagu terakhir dia aja hits bgt kan...pdhl ga bagus x2 amat (I'm personally hate it. Mungkin karna gw ga sk reggae deh). Tp klo Paris seh bkn jd 'musical' tp jd pengumbaran sensuality yg diiringi lagu. Heuh...sebel gw ! Timbo...pls be wise...
Tp klo ngom wise seh mending jgn milih 2-2 nya, scr 2-2 nya sama ngaconya. Ntar tobat, ntar dosa lg. Dunia hollywood emang penuh dosa n godaan...susah jg tuh. Apalg org x2 sono kan byk yg agak atheis, jd ga deket ma Tuhan, jd ja kayak gt deh...gampang tergoda.
Ngeliatin kiprah para maestro music producer diatas, kok gw jg jd pengen ya...menghasilkan lagu yg sejenis kayak yg mereka buat. Dr bunyi elektronik itu kan bisa diolah jd byk bgt alternatif. Lagian di indo masih jarang yg cb ngolah jd kayak gt. Pdhl, mnrt gw yg sk sama lagu sejenis itu byk bgt. Di indo mah, kebykan band mulu...Yg bagus ya bagus...yg asal lewat 1 single jg byk. Lama x2 gw jd males ah...monoton...
Ngomong x2 soal featuring, ada 1 lg neh penyanyi yg cukup byk bikin featuring ato dijadiin objek featuring. Dia adalah SEAN KINGSTON. Wow...gw jg suka tuh...tu org suara kepulauannya khas bgt deh. Pantesan byk yg suka deh...Lagu x2 klo dinyanyiin dia jd punya kesan 'enjoy aja lg' gt...Cool ! Tp klo soal v-clip nya gw males deh...Isinya ce x2 ga jls smua...Eneg lama x2 kebykan ngumbar Shorty's Ass. Bleh...
Ngomongin soal Shorty's Ass, do you know Heidi Montag ? Dia salah satu cast reality show The Hills. Buehhhh...udh denger dan liat lagu terbaru dia yg judulnya "Higher". Ckckckckck....Kt gw kasian lagunya d...Potensi lagunya udh bagus n bermasa depan cerah, tp dihancurkan sehancur x2 nya sama si Heidi ini. Ni org 1/2 mati pengen bgt jd beken n jd jejeran hollywood's 'it' girls. Sampe dia ikut x2 an ngeluarin single yg jdnya malah makin bikin dia dicerca (tp mungkin salah 1 tujuan dia kesampean seh, yaitu jd bhn omongan). Udh dulu dia dihina gara x2 ngelakuin operation-to-make-your-boobs-bigger, skarang malah ini lg. First of all, she can't really sing. So, lagunya jd kayak lagu kacangan. Pdhl beat nya bagus, n gw yakin klo dinyanyiin artis macem Rihanna pasti jd beda bgt d. Maksa bgt deh dia. And to make it worser, the song have an extremely ridiculous v-clip. Man, that v-clip is very stupid ! Bener x2 bikin image stupid girl yg kayaknya udh nempel di Heidi makin kentel. Masa v-clip nya isinya cm adegan Heidi lari x2 di pantai n nyanyi x2 pk bikini yg kayak diambil pk kamera amatir. Mana gerakan nyanyinya parah bgt lg !!! Bener x kliatan idiot. Mikir apa seh yg buat v-clip nya ?! V-clip nya kacangan bgt seh, org awam aja bs kale bikin v-clip kayak gt. Malu atuh neng ! Klo mau jd 'it' girls teh modalan dikit atuh ah ! Sampe di youtube byk bgt yg jdiin parodi. Halah...Memalukan
Ttg parodi...cb deh yg lg nganggur, liat di youtube parodi buatan Sarah Silverman n her boyf, Jimmy Kimmel. Judulnya "I'm fucking Matt Damon" by Sarah Silverman n "I'm fucking Ben Affleck" by Jimmy Kimmel. Gw jg dpt dr temen gw...ptamanya gw ga gt ngarti, tp stlh diamat-amati lg...ternyata SGT LUCU. Gw ga nyaranin liat parodi si Heidi, pcuma bikin eneg aja adanya. Liat yg ini aja, menghibur d...Ktnya beken bgt d di youtube...Silakan liat d.
Ciao !
Sadar ga seh ? Klo lagu x2 RnB/Hip-Hop ataupun pop baru yg skarang byk kluar byk bgt yg featuring ke 4 rapper n music producer diatas. Pasangannya slalu artis yg baru kluar ato artis yg lg top. Haha...
Emang seh mereka berempat tuh keren bgt n gw adalah salah satu konsumen berat dr lagu x2 yg berhasil mereka bikin. Mereka tuh klo buat lagu beat nya asik bgt ! Tp klo ditanya sapa yg paling HOT diantara mereka smua...hhmm...I think it's Timbo...Cuz dr smua lagu x2 mereka itu, biasanya yg langsung catchy di kuping n langsung top ya buatannya si Timbo. Sebenernya T-Pain jg punya kecenderungan yg sama, tp jumlah lagu yg dia hasilkan ga sebyk Timbo d kayaknya. Trus tampang si T-Pain jg jarang nongol. Klo si Timbo kan bertebaran dmana x2.
Malah, ada gossip terakhir yg gw denger, our lovely bitch girls, Lindsay n Paris perang dingin gara x2 ngerebutin Timbo. Mereka tuh 2-2 nya mau bikin album baru nampaknya, lalu mau gaet si Timbo (ya eyalah...gw jg mau tuh). Tp katanya seh yg berhasil maju 1 langkah lbh dulu tuh si Paris. Klo gw jd Timbo, gw seh bakal lbh milih Lindsay deh. Suaranya lbh bagus, potensi utk bener x2 'musical' tuh ada. Klo Paris, emang dia ratu skandal, fans setianya super byk dan klo soal menghasilkan duit no.1 deh ! Lagu terakhir dia aja hits bgt kan...pdhl ga bagus x2 amat (I'm personally hate it. Mungkin karna gw ga sk reggae deh). Tp klo Paris seh bkn jd 'musical' tp jd pengumbaran sensuality yg diiringi lagu. Heuh...sebel gw ! Timbo...pls be wise...
Tp klo ngom wise seh mending jgn milih 2-2 nya, scr 2-2 nya sama ngaconya. Ntar tobat, ntar dosa lg. Dunia hollywood emang penuh dosa n godaan...susah jg tuh. Apalg org x2 sono kan byk yg agak atheis, jd ga deket ma Tuhan, jd ja kayak gt deh...gampang tergoda.
Ngeliatin kiprah para maestro music producer diatas, kok gw jg jd pengen ya...menghasilkan lagu yg sejenis kayak yg mereka buat. Dr bunyi elektronik itu kan bisa diolah jd byk bgt alternatif. Lagian di indo masih jarang yg cb ngolah jd kayak gt. Pdhl, mnrt gw yg sk sama lagu sejenis itu byk bgt. Di indo mah, kebykan band mulu...Yg bagus ya bagus...yg asal lewat 1 single jg byk. Lama x2 gw jd males ah...monoton...
Ngomong x2 soal featuring, ada 1 lg neh penyanyi yg cukup byk bikin featuring ato dijadiin objek featuring. Dia adalah SEAN KINGSTON. Wow...gw jg suka tuh...tu org suara kepulauannya khas bgt deh. Pantesan byk yg suka deh...Lagu x2 klo dinyanyiin dia jd punya kesan 'enjoy aja lg' gt...Cool ! Tp klo soal v-clip nya gw males deh...Isinya ce x2 ga jls smua...Eneg lama x2 kebykan ngumbar Shorty's Ass. Bleh...
Ngomongin soal Shorty's Ass, do you know Heidi Montag ? Dia salah satu cast reality show The Hills. Buehhhh...udh denger dan liat lagu terbaru dia yg judulnya "Higher". Ckckckckck....Kt gw kasian lagunya d...Potensi lagunya udh bagus n bermasa depan cerah, tp dihancurkan sehancur x2 nya sama si Heidi ini. Ni org 1/2 mati pengen bgt jd beken n jd jejeran hollywood's 'it' girls. Sampe dia ikut x2 an ngeluarin single yg jdnya malah makin bikin dia dicerca (tp mungkin salah 1 tujuan dia kesampean seh, yaitu jd bhn omongan). Udh dulu dia dihina gara x2 ngelakuin operation-to-make-your-boobs-bigger, skarang malah ini lg. First of all, she can't really sing. So, lagunya jd kayak lagu kacangan. Pdhl beat nya bagus, n gw yakin klo dinyanyiin artis macem Rihanna pasti jd beda bgt d. Maksa bgt deh dia. And to make it worser, the song have an extremely ridiculous v-clip. Man, that v-clip is very stupid ! Bener x2 bikin image stupid girl yg kayaknya udh nempel di Heidi makin kentel. Masa v-clip nya isinya cm adegan Heidi lari x2 di pantai n nyanyi x2 pk bikini yg kayak diambil pk kamera amatir. Mana gerakan nyanyinya parah bgt lg !!! Bener x kliatan idiot. Mikir apa seh yg buat v-clip nya ?! V-clip nya kacangan bgt seh, org awam aja bs kale bikin v-clip kayak gt. Malu atuh neng ! Klo mau jd 'it' girls teh modalan dikit atuh ah ! Sampe di youtube byk bgt yg jdiin parodi. Halah...Memalukan
Ttg parodi...cb deh yg lg nganggur, liat di youtube parodi buatan Sarah Silverman n her boyf, Jimmy Kimmel. Judulnya "I'm fucking Matt Damon" by Sarah Silverman n "I'm fucking Ben Affleck" by Jimmy Kimmel. Gw jg dpt dr temen gw...ptamanya gw ga gt ngarti, tp stlh diamat-amati lg...ternyata SGT LUCU. Gw ga nyaranin liat parodi si Heidi, pcuma bikin eneg aja adanya. Liat yg ini aja, menghibur d...Ktnya beken bgt d di youtube...Silakan liat d.
Ciao !
My Cold and Breezy Valentine
Liburan semesteran gw yg cm 10 hr udh mau berakhir. Huahuahuahua !!!! Kurang puas !!! But whatever man, that's not today's topic...Today I wanna talk about my valentine's day (the day which for zillion times I still have that zero male presence. D'uh). This year it feels kinda different cuz this is the first time I didn't celebrate it with my friends at school...biasanya kan kita tuker x2 kado di skul, ato anak x2 di skul pd bikin acara yg dimana kita bebas kliaran semau x2 nya karna schedule skul jd ga karuan. Oh...indahnya...And one thing, this is the coldest and the breeziest valentine's ever happen to me ! Gila...Bdg dingin bgt kayak mo turun salju. Dr pagi udara udh bikin males bangun n males keluar. Siang x2 angin masih kenceng. Malem apalg ! Gw tiap malem malah selalu pk mantel tebel bgt yg gw pk pas ke gunung yg emang weathernya super dingin. Gilak...gilak...
Pertamanya gw berencana mo diem sendiri aja di rumah nonton "That 70's show" yg ga pernah gagal bikin gw ngakak. Tp gw pikir, ga rame jg ya...Akhirnya gw memutuskan bwat ngeberesin party dress gw n dd gw yg terbengkalai karna ukuran kainnya aja masih blm tau. Nah, berhubung tempat tukang jaitnya deket Braga, akhirnya abis itu gw pergi deh nonton film "Love" sendirian di Braga Citywalk. Tragis yah...nonton film romance sendirian di hari valentine's. But what the hell...Biasanya tuh bioskop udh serasa bioskop pribadi gw ma sohib gw (aka Sanny) karna bioskop itu tuh slalu sepi n bahkan 5 menit sblm film mulai aja seatnya masih byk yg kosong. So, siapa jg yg peduli gw cm sendiri disono.
But my oh my...ternyata hr ini tuh bioskop full...of couple. Kemana mata memandang smuanya sepasang x2 bagai merpati yg bertengger dgn mesranya. What do you expect, it's valentine's day ?!!! Bahkan, seat bwat jam 1.15 yg jd incaran gw udh tinggal remah x2 bwat 1 org gt. And fortunately, soy solo con yo mismo (alias gw emang cm sendirian). Tp sayangnya, gw dpt seat di tengah x2 yg gw duga bakal diapit oleh pasangan kekasih mesra yg bakal bikin gw risih. And there I am...duduk bengong nunggu pintu dibuka sambil ngeliatin pasangan yg hilir mudik cengar cengir gembira nan lincah. I felt really strange, like I didn't belong in that place cuz I'm all alone while everyone hold someone's hand, but who cares...I wouldn't bothers anyone.
Setelah 100 kali pengumuman bahwa pintu theater 2 sdh dibuka dan diikuti dgn 100 kali pengumuman bahwa film theater 2 sdh dimulai yg membuat para penonton film theater 3 (film "Love") yg menunggu pintu theater 3 (yg diduga rusak dan butuh direparasi oleh tukang) dibuka menjadi gila, akhirnya pintu theater 3 dibuka juga. Gw lumayan lega pas tau, klo yg duduk di sblh kanan gw itu bkn couple. Tp gw jg pasrah soalnya gw yakin sblh kiri gw pasti couple soalnya sisa seatnya tinggal 2. But how lucky I am, the 2 chairs are belong to 2 girls. Yey !!!
Filmpun mulai...Filmnya bagus lho ! Apalg aransemen music nya yg by Erwin Gutawa, aduh bagus bgt (Ya iyalah bagus) ! Lagu 'Sempurna' nya Andra & the Backbone dinyanyiin ulang sama Gitta Gutawa, wow...keren. Cm gw lumayan kesel, karna pas adegan yg mnrt gw bagus n dalem, byk org malah ketawa gt and jd moment breaker. Bahkan, cewe yg duduk di sblh gw trus aja komentar ga penting dgn suara cempreng dan keras (I think she is the worst moment breaker in that theatre). Geez...Come on ! Emang penting ya, ngomentarin org x2 yg hilir mudik pas adegan hujan pk payung yg sama persis pd saat adegan itu jg lg ngebahas ttg sakit hati seorang cowo yg br tau cewe yg dia taksir udh mau mati (FYI, mnrt gw, disitu si Irwansyah mainnya bagus n menyentuh). Emang penting ya, trus x2 an ngom adegan ini-dan-itu berlebihan. Pdhl kaga ya...,malah adegan x2 itu tuh bagus n nyata, ga sok x2 cool utk mempertahankan image muka cakep ala boyband ato muka cool ala vic zhou. Ok, you want to make a comment or two ?! That's fine...as long as you keep your voice down or just keep it to yourself. Otherwise, just zip it, dumb-ass ! Untungnya adegan terakhir mereka masih apreciate n berhasil nangis jg (including me...heuheu...just like always). Gw maapin d tuh org x2...hahahaha
Sblm film abis, untungnya temen gw sms klo dia mo ngajak pegi gw. Cihuy !!!
Acara berlanjut ! Trus gw dianterin pulang pegi lg, asikkkk...Akhirnya kita ber4 deh jln x2, ke ciwalk bentar bwat say hi sama anak SF ITB n abis itu...kita makan di Rumah Nenek. Suasananya lumayan enak...makanannya jg lumayan. Kecuali makanan yg gw pesen, heuh...dagingnya karet bgt ! Sampe pegel ngunyahnya...But, it doesn't matter though...food with good friends is always taste nice. Hehehe...asik jg kan 4 jomblo dinner bareng drpd manyun di rumah. Ga jaman ah !!! Hahahaha...
We have a little company too...one cute girl yg namanya : a.Diva b.Shifa c.Tifa d.Eva e. ..va I prefer e...karna tuh anak ditanya ga jls bgt. Yg jls kedengeran cm blkngnya doang yaitu...va. Anak yg aneh...Anyway, tuh anak cukup menghibur kita ber4 yg lg madesu dgn cara nyamperin kita sembari senyum x2 ga jls, trus ketawa x2 ngakak ga jls, trus ngeliatin makanan kita dgn maksud (yg lg x2) ga jls (ditawarin ga mau tuh), ataupun meloncat x2 dgn gerakan ga jls.
Jd anak kecil tuh enak bgt ya ? Mau ga jls jg ga da yg peduli, happy aja sendiri. Sedangkan gw yg thn ini menua dgn mengubah angka depan umur jd kpala 2, mana bs tetep autis ga jls kayak anak kecil ? Pdhl aku kan pengen...hoalahhhh...sadar mbak, sadar...Heuh...man, I'm getting old. I'm a grown-ups now. Wish I can visit neverland for a while...hahaha.
Anyway, I just want to say :
Happy love day/Dia feliz de amor/Gelukkige liefdedag/il giorno di amore felice/Glückliche Liebe Tag/счастливый день любви/幸福的爱日/le jour heureux d'amour/幸福な愛日/whatever languages that human have...
Pertamanya gw berencana mo diem sendiri aja di rumah nonton "That 70's show" yg ga pernah gagal bikin gw ngakak. Tp gw pikir, ga rame jg ya...Akhirnya gw memutuskan bwat ngeberesin party dress gw n dd gw yg terbengkalai karna ukuran kainnya aja masih blm tau. Nah, berhubung tempat tukang jaitnya deket Braga, akhirnya abis itu gw pergi deh nonton film "Love" sendirian di Braga Citywalk. Tragis yah...nonton film romance sendirian di hari valentine's. But what the hell...Biasanya tuh bioskop udh serasa bioskop pribadi gw ma sohib gw (aka Sanny) karna bioskop itu tuh slalu sepi n bahkan 5 menit sblm film mulai aja seatnya masih byk yg kosong. So, siapa jg yg peduli gw cm sendiri disono.
But my oh my...ternyata hr ini tuh bioskop full...of couple. Kemana mata memandang smuanya sepasang x2 bagai merpati yg bertengger dgn mesranya. What do you expect, it's valentine's day ?!!! Bahkan, seat bwat jam 1.15 yg jd incaran gw udh tinggal remah x2 bwat 1 org gt. And fortunately, soy solo con yo mismo (alias gw emang cm sendirian). Tp sayangnya, gw dpt seat di tengah x2 yg gw duga bakal diapit oleh pasangan kekasih mesra yg bakal bikin gw risih. And there I am...duduk bengong nunggu pintu dibuka sambil ngeliatin pasangan yg hilir mudik cengar cengir gembira nan lincah. I felt really strange, like I didn't belong in that place cuz I'm all alone while everyone hold someone's hand, but who cares...I wouldn't bothers anyone.
Setelah 100 kali pengumuman bahwa pintu theater 2 sdh dibuka dan diikuti dgn 100 kali pengumuman bahwa film theater 2 sdh dimulai yg membuat para penonton film theater 3 (film "Love") yg menunggu pintu theater 3 (yg diduga rusak dan butuh direparasi oleh tukang) dibuka menjadi gila, akhirnya pintu theater 3 dibuka juga. Gw lumayan lega pas tau, klo yg duduk di sblh kanan gw itu bkn couple. Tp gw jg pasrah soalnya gw yakin sblh kiri gw pasti couple soalnya sisa seatnya tinggal 2. But how lucky I am, the 2 chairs are belong to 2 girls. Yey !!!
Filmpun mulai...Filmnya bagus lho ! Apalg aransemen music nya yg by Erwin Gutawa, aduh bagus bgt (Ya iyalah bagus) ! Lagu 'Sempurna' nya Andra & the Backbone dinyanyiin ulang sama Gitta Gutawa, wow...keren. Cm gw lumayan kesel, karna pas adegan yg mnrt gw bagus n dalem, byk org malah ketawa gt and jd moment breaker. Bahkan, cewe yg duduk di sblh gw trus aja komentar ga penting dgn suara cempreng dan keras (I think she is the worst moment breaker in that theatre). Geez...Come on ! Emang penting ya, ngomentarin org x2 yg hilir mudik pas adegan hujan pk payung yg sama persis pd saat adegan itu jg lg ngebahas ttg sakit hati seorang cowo yg br tau cewe yg dia taksir udh mau mati (FYI, mnrt gw, disitu si Irwansyah mainnya bagus n menyentuh). Emang penting ya, trus x2 an ngom adegan ini-dan-itu berlebihan. Pdhl kaga ya...,malah adegan x2 itu tuh bagus n nyata, ga sok x2 cool utk mempertahankan image muka cakep ala boyband ato muka cool ala vic zhou. Ok, you want to make a comment or two ?! That's fine...as long as you keep your voice down or just keep it to yourself. Otherwise, just zip it, dumb-ass ! Untungnya adegan terakhir mereka masih apreciate n berhasil nangis jg (including me...heuheu...just like always). Gw maapin d tuh org x2...hahahaha
Sblm film abis, untungnya temen gw sms klo dia mo ngajak pegi gw. Cihuy !!!
Acara berlanjut ! Trus gw dianterin pulang pegi lg, asikkkk...Akhirnya kita ber4 deh jln x2, ke ciwalk bentar bwat say hi sama anak SF ITB n abis itu...kita makan di Rumah Nenek. Suasananya lumayan enak...makanannya jg lumayan. Kecuali makanan yg gw pesen, heuh...dagingnya karet bgt ! Sampe pegel ngunyahnya...But, it doesn't matter though...food with good friends is always taste nice. Hehehe...asik jg kan 4 jomblo dinner bareng drpd manyun di rumah. Ga jaman ah !!! Hahahaha...
We have a little company too...one cute girl yg namanya : a.Diva b.Shifa c.Tifa d.Eva e. ..va I prefer e...karna tuh anak ditanya ga jls bgt. Yg jls kedengeran cm blkngnya doang yaitu...va. Anak yg aneh...Anyway, tuh anak cukup menghibur kita ber4 yg lg madesu dgn cara nyamperin kita sembari senyum x2 ga jls, trus ketawa x2 ngakak ga jls, trus ngeliatin makanan kita dgn maksud (yg lg x2) ga jls (ditawarin ga mau tuh), ataupun meloncat x2 dgn gerakan ga jls.
Jd anak kecil tuh enak bgt ya ? Mau ga jls jg ga da yg peduli, happy aja sendiri. Sedangkan gw yg thn ini menua dgn mengubah angka depan umur jd kpala 2, mana bs tetep autis ga jls kayak anak kecil ? Pdhl aku kan pengen...hoalahhhh...sadar mbak, sadar...Heuh...man, I'm getting old. I'm a grown-ups now. Wish I can visit neverland for a while...hahaha.
Anyway, I just want to say :
Happy love day/Dia feliz de amor/Gelukkige liefdedag/il giorno di amore felice/Glückliche Liebe Tag/счастливый день любви/幸福的爱日/le jour heureux d'amour/幸福な愛日/whatever languages that human have...
A Wrapped Empty Christmas Present
Hello listeners (Lho ?! Emangnya radio apa ?! Sebodo ah...Gmana gw aja...Lg kesel neh, udh nulis sepanjang tembok China trus ilang. Sial seribu sial !) Liburan ini gw byk menghembuskan nafas berat yg brarti byk rasa kecewa n rasa cape baik scr batin maupun scr fisik. Pdhl, klo ditanya apa liburan gw menyenangkan, gw pasti langsung jawab menyenangkan tanpa pikir panjang. Gw rasa gw cukup byk bersenang x2 slm liburan ini. Tp auranya kok ga kayak org abis liburan gini ya ? Mungkin karena byk target liburan gw yg ga kesampean. Spt contoh, gw merasa kurang puas maen bareng temen x2 lama gw karna sebgn besar waktu gw kebuang gt aja gara x2 ngerjain tugas scr ga efisien karna pikiran gw maen melulu. Satu lg, gw merasa kecewa dgn diri gw sendiri. Mnrt gw, slm gw di Jkt gw cukup byk brubah dan mengalami kemajuan. Smua potensi yg slm di Bdg kelelep, kerendem ketimpangan sosial yg ada, berhasil gw gali n gw kembangin seheboh x2 nya. Dan efek x2 nya tuh udh mulai kliatan. Entah mengapa, stlh gw balik ke Bdg, gw malah kembali jd seorang Vanessa yg dulu, yg ½ mati brusaha gw ubah dan bhasil menjadi sosok yg much better slm di Jkt. Rasanya perubahan gw slm di Jkt itu jd sia x2 aja. Bsok mo balik ke Jkt aja, srasa mulai lg dr nol. Apa mungkin emang hrsnya gw ga ush tlalu sering balik ke Bdg ya ? Tp kan keluarga gw n temen x2 gw smuanya berdomisili di Bdg. Hue...Kecewa berattt, sedih bgttt, kesel so pastiii...
Selama ini gw sibuk maki x2 yg namanya Kota Jkt. Yg panas lah (gw jd belang kayak zebra cb ?!), yg macet lah (pernah ngerasain macet walopun lg jln kaki ? Yuu...ke tempat gw, biar ngerasain asiknya kesenggol motor n kejepit mobil), dan makian x2 lainnya. Tp di Jktlah, gw bs bereskpresi n eksplorasi diri gw sebebas x2 nya, tanpa ada yg nge-judge, tanpa ada cap sosial yg bakal lu tanggung berthn x2. Seperti kertas putih kosong bwat gw isi dgn kesempatan baru, kesempatan baru bwat ngerubah diri gw jd org yg lbh baik.
Spt judul diatas, thn ini gw merasa dpt a wrapped empty christmas present. Bayangin aja, stlh kurang lbh 5 bln gw menanti x2 liburan ini, berkhayal btapa asiknya bakal ktemu temen x2 gw yg udh ½ thn ga ktemu, ngumpul ma sodara n keluarga gw lg dlm waktu yg lumayan lama, akhirnya malah mengecewakan. Rasanya persis kayak dikasih kado yg dibungkus indah, trus disuru nunggu 5 bln sampe akhirnya gw br bole buka tuh kado. Stlh 5 bln, akhirnya gw bk itu kado dgn penuh semangat dan surprise, surprise ! Ternyata kado yg dibungkus indah itu isinya kosong, nihil, ga da apax2. Btapa kecewanya. Gw jd inget motto salah satu temen gw saat gw manas x2 in dia ttg moment yg dia tunggu x2, “Nes, gw mah ga bs tlalu excited ngadepin saat x2 yg gw tunggu x2. Soalnya biasanya malah terjd kekacaoan...”. Mungkin laen kali gw musti make motto temen gw itu, ga ush tlalu excited, spy akhirnya ga kecewa. Skarang seh, gw cm bs berharap, smoga di dlm kado gw yg kosong itu terselip sbuah memo yg isinya : A special present is hidden in someplace for you. Take all your time to find it. You’ll be surprise when you’ll find out what’s inside the present.
Ini terjadi sama sepupu kecil gw saat acara natal kmaren. Keluarga gw tuh ngadain acara chrismast n ada acara tuker kado. Nah, sepupu gw itu dpt kotak kado yg ukurannya paling besar. Setelah dibuka, ternyata kotak itu isinya cm serutan x2 kertas dan selembar surat yg isinya kurang lbh sama dgn memo impian gw itu. Pertamanya, sepupu gw itu mukanya kecewa berat n penuh kebingungan. Tp, saat disuru baca isi surat yg ada dlm kotak itu, dgn malu x2 tp semangat, ia langsung mencari kadonya yg disembunyiin itu. Diikuti smua sepupu yg ikut x2 an excited nyari kado bwat si kecil. Akhirnya dia berhasil menemukan kado utknya, yg berupa sepasang kelinci hidup yg sedang duduk manis di kandang kayunya. Kado spupu gw itu jd kado paling berkesan saat natal kmaren karna itu satu x2 nya kado yang berupa makhluk hidup. Hhhh...Gw berharap kado natal n thn baru gw bakal punya skenario yg sama kayak gitu.
Gw lumayan sk bwat puisi. Dan biasanya, inspirasi gw tuh dateng dr rasa kecewa ato rasa sedih yg gw rasain. In fact, kayaknya ga da puisi gw yg isinya hura x2 d...halah...Berhubung skarang gw lg merasa kecewa dgn keadaan liburan gw yg mengenaskan (jg kecewa berat dgn seseorang yg gw ga abis pikir malah bikin gw kecewa), gw mo taroh puisi yg gw bwat kurang lbh 2 jam lalu di kamar gw yg acak x2 an, yg gw tulis dgn posisi yg sgt tdk nyaman namun tergolong inspirasional alias nonggeng. C ya ! XOXO, Nes (demam gossip girl bgt ya ?! Hahaha...)
DECEMBER
This month,
When the air feels cold,
And the rain pours oftenly.
When the wind blows,
Bring my dreams,
Hanging in the sky.
Full of hope and passion,
To come alive.
And feel the sweetness of life.
And that’s...when it all falls apart.
When my dreams crushed,
With a piece of ignorant,
And a drop of lies.
When everything I’ve been waiting for,
Turns out to be a wrapped empty christmas present.
I feel as cold as the weather,
And as empty as the wrapped present in my hand.
I feel so stupid,
Childishly and unpatiently expecting something that wasn’t there.
I feel so ashamed,
With all those imaginations running wild back and forth.
But everything is happens for a reason.
And maybe there’s a reason,
For everything that happens,
In this December.
Selama ini gw sibuk maki x2 yg namanya Kota Jkt. Yg panas lah (gw jd belang kayak zebra cb ?!), yg macet lah (pernah ngerasain macet walopun lg jln kaki ? Yuu...ke tempat gw, biar ngerasain asiknya kesenggol motor n kejepit mobil), dan makian x2 lainnya. Tp di Jktlah, gw bs bereskpresi n eksplorasi diri gw sebebas x2 nya, tanpa ada yg nge-judge, tanpa ada cap sosial yg bakal lu tanggung berthn x2. Seperti kertas putih kosong bwat gw isi dgn kesempatan baru, kesempatan baru bwat ngerubah diri gw jd org yg lbh baik.
Spt judul diatas, thn ini gw merasa dpt a wrapped empty christmas present. Bayangin aja, stlh kurang lbh 5 bln gw menanti x2 liburan ini, berkhayal btapa asiknya bakal ktemu temen x2 gw yg udh ½ thn ga ktemu, ngumpul ma sodara n keluarga gw lg dlm waktu yg lumayan lama, akhirnya malah mengecewakan. Rasanya persis kayak dikasih kado yg dibungkus indah, trus disuru nunggu 5 bln sampe akhirnya gw br bole buka tuh kado. Stlh 5 bln, akhirnya gw bk itu kado dgn penuh semangat dan surprise, surprise ! Ternyata kado yg dibungkus indah itu isinya kosong, nihil, ga da apax2. Btapa kecewanya. Gw jd inget motto salah satu temen gw saat gw manas x2 in dia ttg moment yg dia tunggu x2, “Nes, gw mah ga bs tlalu excited ngadepin saat x2 yg gw tunggu x2. Soalnya biasanya malah terjd kekacaoan...”. Mungkin laen kali gw musti make motto temen gw itu, ga ush tlalu excited, spy akhirnya ga kecewa. Skarang seh, gw cm bs berharap, smoga di dlm kado gw yg kosong itu terselip sbuah memo yg isinya : A special present is hidden in someplace for you. Take all your time to find it. You’ll be surprise when you’ll find out what’s inside the present.
Ini terjadi sama sepupu kecil gw saat acara natal kmaren. Keluarga gw tuh ngadain acara chrismast n ada acara tuker kado. Nah, sepupu gw itu dpt kotak kado yg ukurannya paling besar. Setelah dibuka, ternyata kotak itu isinya cm serutan x2 kertas dan selembar surat yg isinya kurang lbh sama dgn memo impian gw itu. Pertamanya, sepupu gw itu mukanya kecewa berat n penuh kebingungan. Tp, saat disuru baca isi surat yg ada dlm kotak itu, dgn malu x2 tp semangat, ia langsung mencari kadonya yg disembunyiin itu. Diikuti smua sepupu yg ikut x2 an excited nyari kado bwat si kecil. Akhirnya dia berhasil menemukan kado utknya, yg berupa sepasang kelinci hidup yg sedang duduk manis di kandang kayunya. Kado spupu gw itu jd kado paling berkesan saat natal kmaren karna itu satu x2 nya kado yang berupa makhluk hidup. Hhhh...Gw berharap kado natal n thn baru gw bakal punya skenario yg sama kayak gitu.
Gw lumayan sk bwat puisi. Dan biasanya, inspirasi gw tuh dateng dr rasa kecewa ato rasa sedih yg gw rasain. In fact, kayaknya ga da puisi gw yg isinya hura x2 d...halah...Berhubung skarang gw lg merasa kecewa dgn keadaan liburan gw yg mengenaskan (jg kecewa berat dgn seseorang yg gw ga abis pikir malah bikin gw kecewa), gw mo taroh puisi yg gw bwat kurang lbh 2 jam lalu di kamar gw yg acak x2 an, yg gw tulis dgn posisi yg sgt tdk nyaman namun tergolong inspirasional alias nonggeng. C ya ! XOXO, Nes (demam gossip girl bgt ya ?! Hahaha...)
DECEMBER
This month,
When the air feels cold,
And the rain pours oftenly.
When the wind blows,
Bring my dreams,
Hanging in the sky.
Full of hope and passion,
To come alive.
And feel the sweetness of life.
And that’s...when it all falls apart.
When my dreams crushed,
With a piece of ignorant,
And a drop of lies.
When everything I’ve been waiting for,
Turns out to be a wrapped empty christmas present.
I feel as cold as the weather,
And as empty as the wrapped present in my hand.
I feel so stupid,
Childishly and unpatiently expecting something that wasn’t there.
I feel so ashamed,
With all those imaginations running wild back and forth.
But everything is happens for a reason.
And maybe there’s a reason,
For everything that happens,
In this December.
OMG !!!
OMG !!!
Kok udh mo masuk lg seh ?! Gw masih blm puas neh !!! Mana udh bolos 3 hr pula !!! AAKKKHHH !!!
Libur DKV hanyalah tipuan belaka, rekayasa semata, dan impian saja...Gmana kaga ?! Liburan tp tugasnya ga libur x2, sial !!! Ga tenang liburan gw neh...Sampe dtk ini blm beres tuh tugas gw. Yg udh beres jg sama skali tdk memuaskan hasilnya. Hoaaaa....Habis pikirannya ga di tugas sehhhhh...Sebodo ah...Yg penting tugas jd n ada nilai, hahahaha...ngalantur we trussss
(Utk sementara tdk diteruskan, karena keadaan otak sedang kurang waras, bimbang, dan membabi buta pengen maen tp di depan mata ada tugas yg terbengkalai. Halahhh...-_-')
Kok udh mo masuk lg seh ?! Gw masih blm puas neh !!! Mana udh bolos 3 hr pula !!! AAKKKHHH !!!
Libur DKV hanyalah tipuan belaka, rekayasa semata, dan impian saja...Gmana kaga ?! Liburan tp tugasnya ga libur x2, sial !!! Ga tenang liburan gw neh...Sampe dtk ini blm beres tuh tugas gw. Yg udh beres jg sama skali tdk memuaskan hasilnya. Hoaaaa....Habis pikirannya ga di tugas sehhhhh...Sebodo ah...Yg penting tugas jd n ada nilai, hahahaha...ngalantur we trussss
(Utk sementara tdk diteruskan, karena keadaan otak sedang kurang waras, bimbang, dan membabi buta pengen maen tp di depan mata ada tugas yg terbengkalai. Halahhh...-_-')
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